#mirrormantra -You Cannot Love in Moderation (#5 of 5)

Several years ago, a therapist suggested that I write messages to myself on post-it notes, and put them on my mirror. These photos have become a thread in the tapestry of my online life, but I have never shared what the notes mean to me. In this blog series, I will share a handful of those moments - in hopes that it will provide encouragement to someone out there. 

​Peace & Much Love.
- Amy

​You cannot love in moderation.

This is a line from a song called Land of the Living, by Matthew Perryman Jones.
Anytime I hear this song, it makes me feel emotional. There are so many words in this song that hit me like a ton of bricks, but this line is the most important.

You cannot love in moderation.

It reminds me to allow myself to be broken and open in relationships that are safe and reciprocal. To allow the walls around my heart to come down is the only way to have true connection with other people. Even though I know this, it’s still really hard. In my life over the past several years, there have been so many major changes. It’s not natural for me to allow myself to be truly seen by anyone, because I feel the constant need to guard myself. When I allow myself to love wholeheartedly, there is a deep ache that comes with the knowledge that I am allowing that person to be close enough to destroy me emotionally.

However, I do believe this is why we are placed on this earth together. I believe we are to care for the ones we choose to walk alongside, and that this is the true purpose in life-- and what makes all that pain worth the battle.

You cannot love in moderation
Dancing with a dead man's bones
Lay your soul
On the threshing floor

Between the walls of the river,
Shoulders bare the sacred stones
We made it alive
We are not alone

Kiss the ground
And change your name

Thank you Matthew Perryman Jones, for this beautiful song – that rocks my soul and brings be back to center.
Music heals.
​#musicheals

All my best,
Amy

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